~~ I am who I am ~~

~~ Happy New Year ~

2009-01-18T14:25:00.005+08:00

I'm late again...i know..haha..procastination habits lies in me again.

Let's start from...

31.12.08.

I went to Sunway Pyramid for skating and a small gathering with my gals and some guys. Thou not all of them can make it on that day, but still i enjoyed alot. I seriously had a great day bcz i get to spend some time with my gals...and also with him. We actually planned to stay til countdown..but some cant make it. Then at the same time, juni's having potluck at his hse, thr4 me n dex went over. It was also a celebration for his brthday.

01.01.09.

A New Year had finally arrived. Its year 2009 now...and Juni finally turn 19. haha...He's d eldest among all. I had great time too..bcz its my vry first time celebrating New Year with frenz and also my bf. I reli do appreciate the every moment that he spend with me. Thanks alot!

12.01.09.

New term starts...its my 3rd term...! glad that i made it through Basic Composition 2. Goin back to skol is nth special thn any other days. Its jz normal and ya, some of them shock me with their "some total-change-ness"....haha...but they stil look the same. Other than jz that, today was also another special day to me. It's our 1st year!! nvr tot v've made it this far and im reli glad tht v made it. Ignore the "some bad things" tht happen on tht nite..I stil appreciate the day vry much.I love u!

18.01.09.
I'm sitting here in front of my comp blogging and eating fries for "BRUNCH" (breakfast + lunch). It's been awhile since i last blog..so as i browse thru the links...i came to my own blog and i saw N's comment.."It's time to update lor...hahaha..."...which made me tot of "yah hor.i shud la..its been vry long since b4 thou".

So that's all for my post...Be back til i update again....-long time i think-

Happy New Year & Happy Chinese New Year!

-kim-

~ If Things Were A Lil Better ~

2008-12-16T22:46:00.002+08:00

It's been vry long since the last post i made.Many had told me that I NEED TO KEEP MY BLOG UPDATED...yahh!!!...i'm lazy as u all know....
Hmm...Many ups and downs/left n right have been goin in my life. Life in studies is getting tougher and tougher each day and even i'm down with all sorts of sickness. Argh! These days or weeks..i've nt been having a gud night slp nor any much of slp. Thr's so much to be done..and i feel that im exhausted...im reli tired and sick of it ard...i nid to rest....bt still i hav to go thru fr another few more days

Today, 16th Dec 2008,
~final exam
~moral & Basic Compo 2.
~UNWANTED NEWS..

ya!UNWANTED NEWS!!!!!bt aint gona mention it here..fr those who ard knew about it..u know wt's kim talking about..><"..didnt expected to hear that...bt the actual finalization of it is stil not out yet....thr4 its consider as a SUSPENS?

I bet most of us are feeling the same..and yahhh...today isnt any better day for anyone of us...bt no matter how...life still must go on...jz like.."having a broken leg doesnt meant that we canot continue walking.."..putting urself into a mind that is so tense up and so wouldnt make things bttr.

YAH! KIM! TALK LAH EASY!...(some may say tht)

yes. without any doubt of agreeing with that...talking is always easier than to be done...bt like i say life still gotta go on. Furthermore, if u knew that we are standing on the right position and not denying nor lying, then things will be fine.

Anyway life's goin on fr me now...tmr will be another day...and hopefully its a better one..

Wish me Luck in COMPUTER Exam tmr..LAST AND FOR ALL!!!

~~ Untitled Entry ~~

2008-10-19T22:33:00.003+08:00

Its been awhile since i last blog...almost a month already??
anyway...term 1 finally ends...term 2 coming...
bt b4 that...
finals' next week wed...den SLC CAMP is will b on the fri...yaey!!yaey!!

im feeling excited bout the camp..bt at the same time..i don feel gud..bcz....:
1stly..i cant see him from today till the weekends ad which = A WEEK!!
2ndly..i duno thr gt line not!! bcz da camp is located in quite an "isolated" area la...
3rdly..im afraid of HEIGHTS!!!the activities....majority of it is about HEIGHTS!!!

anyway...nth much to update also after so long....

so long readers....

kim...xoxo

~~ Love ~~

2008-09-27T19:40:00.004+08:00

I wrote our love in my memories..

thinking of it..puts a smile on my face...causing my heart to skip a beat.

I hope along this journey...its only me and u..

P.S. I love you.

~~ THANK YOU~! ~~

2008-09-22T20:03:00.002+08:00

I'm here to thank ma'

PRECIOUS PHILOSOPHY ASSIGNMENT!!

THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY LIFE SO MISERABLE!

PHILOSOPHY U'RE SUCKING MY BLOOD OUT!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

-okay im done with my nonsense acts...argh!...back to cracking my skull-

-cya-

p.s. i noe its lame..

~~ Title-less Entry ~~

2008-09-18T18:02:00.003+08:00

"Flow like the river! If ya aint flowing, ya aint learning!"

This quote is told by Juni to me. He sed..in life we shud flow juz like the river. The term river;water is we human..rocks along the river is our obstacles n challenges ahead of us. We shhud face our challenges juz like how the river did. Obstacles can stand in our way..we only need to defeat it by facing it. Think of ways to solve it..and not running away from it.
A Question :-
Hav u ever sees a river doin U-Turns/ moving backwards?
I bet the ans is NO rite? It only flows forwards instead of flowing backwards.

It's been long eversince the last time i imply tht term into my life.N now, once again I'm using it again. My life has been better or shud i say..vry much more bttr thn b4.
How different?
No more in my sulky faces...and being emo over everything.

Life changes eversince i realise i'm finally able to stand up on my own two feet and started moving forward. I've nvr regret for the things tht has hapen in the past. Atleast now I've found myself back..and I'm filled with more laughters and silly acts. Besides that, I realise tht I gain alot of experiences from relationships. Each different relationship teaches me different things. It has taught me alot. But everytime whn it failes, eventually i get injured.

Today;now;this moment; I cant figured out why im moodless. Is it bcz of ytd? why am i having the same feeling like the past? what shud i do?

Things I nvr wana think of :-
-breaking up
-being over sensitive
-will i lose him?
-crying over it
-falling back into depression

But I cant get rid of thinkin about it.I reli duno wat shud i do!!
I'm feeling really frustrated over this feeling.
All i wana do now is to concentrate on my studies..and flow like the river.

Btw..atleast thr's something tht cheers me up..is tht class were quite fun and my midterm ENG exam...86/100 haha!!

haiz....moodless..

~~ Assignments + Midterms!! ~~

2008-09-13T15:47:00.003+08:00

Lately i havent been updating my blog...nothing much to update about actually...

hmm.....

philosophy assignment is killing!!! WAT TO WRITE LAH ??? GOSH....!!!!!!

Midterm Next week....nahh...one day only....Basic Composition 1!..kekeke...

- Wish Me Luck :P -

Birthday pics will soon be updated later...Give me 2 weeks....now vry lazy and busy with assignments....T.T..

Miss ma' Boy lots!!

~~ College Starts ~~

2008-08-27T17:42:00.006+08:00

Haha!!!!

Atlast..i finally started college or shud i say

I'M BACK??

...ehm...for after so many months. hahahhaa.....I was previously in HELP(HUC) doin foundation in arts. After 1 Semester..due to i failed 3/4 subs...and also the subjects wasnt wat i like..so without any further delay...i made up my mind to switched course. Finally, the course i wanted the most that's ADP was offered flexibility in SEGi,while other colleges such as Taylors and HELP offers its a muz to take 2+2. And my mom wasnt tht sure bout the economics n financial bla bla bla stuffs. So i switched course and also college to SEGi,Kota Damansara. Now the college had jz upgraded to A UNIVERSITY,so its called SEGi University College.

Hahaha!!!

Funny it seems i'm more relax with the environment n yada yada this time. And yahh....its also bcoz i have someone there...that's my piggy gal,veven!!

1st day of college,everyone's asking.."hey kim,how's college today?"....i repeatingly answers them..."hmm...its okay okay lah..wt do u expect fr a 1st day?"...haha...da whole induction turns into a LECTURE of the day.haha..bt its still fine la.

So,I woke up at 6am amazingly..this time damn brightly awake. I rolled in bed fr like almost an hour..with lights switched on. Den I looked at the comp..i saw dex's room was lighted too..which means he is awake fr college too.haha..So u wondering why i saw his room? Webcam lor..didnt switched off thou. hahaha....So after those rolling on the beds, I went to hav an early bath to fully freshen myself up..n yada yada stuff.....2 words getting ready.

Then I drove off to Ann Yee's hse and reach thr at around 8am..due to she's guiding me to use the Damansara Perdana way to college. Luckily thr's help frm her..if nt i'll be stuck at the jam in the road goin to One Utama which is damn freaking long.

So v reached college at 8.30am. I was like..."WOW....DAMN EARLY WEIHH!!!! I STILL GT AN HOUR B4 THE INDUCTION"...so ann brought me to check my subjects and showed me the class which the induction is held. So at 9am,ann gt class...bt luckily ven reached college b4 9am...if nt i'll b MS.LONELY fr an hr and b bored to death.

So nth much for the 1st day...timetables were given out...and its all in d afternoon..which is 2pm - 5pm..1 day 1 clz which is 3hrs...haha...2subjects which last 8 weeks and 8 weeks is equals to 1term..and i hav 5 terms in a year.

Continues on the 2nd day...went to college alone...around 1pm I'm already in college...due to its raining heavyly out thr. I met a few skolmates along the way inn college..saw Wei Kit and v had a conversation over...b4 i saw him..i actually met...erm..my ex...i was on the phone wit ann and as i turn around i was shock n stunt whn i saw him..he n his fren waved at me..due to im on the phone..they walked away as if i'm a ghost or wat. But nahh...it doesnt matter much to me lah. So my class was Basic Composition 1(english)..Mr.Chase was our lecturer. He's frm Kentucky..haha...and jz arrive at KL da day b4 the induction. Learn bout the topics..class starts bla bla bla....and ended 1 hour early. haha....

Continues on the 3rd day which is 2day....Same usual thing bout goin to college..my 2nd sub was Introduction to Philosophy..haha...interesting class thou..1st assignment were given today n its due date is on the 3rd of Oct. I forgot wt my lecturer's name ad...haha...jz a lil bit bout her...she's an interesting malay lady.

nahh thr's nth mch for me to say bout it ady...i guess it wud b the same fr the whole 2 months...kkekeke...

This is my blog fr today...its raining freakingly heavy outside..its a gud time fr me to take a nap...wakakakak.....

-THE END-

~~ 13.08.08 & 15.08.08 ~~

2008-08-15T17:43:00.008+08:00

OKAY! I didnt reli update much on 13.08.08 the other day due to YOU-KNOW-WAT-HAPPEN. So today i'm goin to blog bout early 13.08.08 & today 15.08.08.

Back to wt i wana blog bout today,saw the icy icy desert covered with watermelon?? They call it.."sai mai lou". This is wt happen on the 13th. I went out yum cha with my 2 frens ven and kar meng. Ven was suppose to fetch her sis to tuition and headed to the OCBC bank in Metro Prima to manage some stuff. Then kar meng came to my hse to picked me up..n v both headed to Taman Cuepacs (i think so) to see the place tht sells icy icy stuff gt open or not.

Wonder why all in a sudden v finding fr such stuff??

ITS VEN'S IDEA!!

She wanted to eat icy stuff thts why v "brainstorm" all nite whr to find those icy icy food to eat. We know a few place, some whr in Kepong Baru but it only opens in the nite time and its expensive n not worth the eat too.

After v found the shop OPENS....v both headed to OCBC Bank to find ven..bcz she duno the way thr to Taman Cuepacs. Then da same thing again...bring her to the place lor. Its a vry small stall near the roadside. The icy food thr...okay la..nt too bad thou.

So here is it....after v reach.....

(Ven talking to Kar Meng:Pik-pok!Pik-pok!!)

(Kar Meng listening n smiling...wuu....)

(Kar Meng punya food....i duno wt he ordered..i bet it taste gud..)

(Hahaha!! C how enjoy i was...the ice is soooo COOOLD!!!)

(Den suddenly!!....."Apple bottom jeans...jeans...."....His phone rang! We wonder who horr?)

Me and ven ordered the same thing.I'm coughing n stil taking ice wakakkaaka...shhh....den after that....v went home.

Today..,15th.....Kar Meng asked me...u wan go yum cha or not, with ven? We goin MCd,damansara....u wan not? I sed okay la...i no problem..u check she wake up ad not lor. Same thing again...he fetch me also..about 1smth or 2..

Wonder why 2 times goin out oso he fetch??

Because he stays around the corner lor...so don misunderstands...

We went to ven's hse to fetch her...den headed over to MCd.

This is wt I caught in MCd....jz a lil stuff to share...

(Our good fren...Mr.Half-Half...a.k.a Kar Meng....i didnt noe i get this..he was movin..n end up...can u c the gay-ness in him?)

Den about almost 3.40pm v left MCd...and v fetch ven back to get her car..bcz she nids to fetch her sis back frm tuition in Maluri i suppose.....this is hw she drives....

(Saw tht "mini cooper"?? Its veven! Very Fast...like fast n furious...v chasing her from bhind...)

(Coming up........getting closer....)

(Okay....! Gotcha!! Look closer...her no.Plat...kekeke...owh...those stuff on the car's dashboard...u cn ignore tht..bt those toy cars...i luv the black 1..Kar Meng u wait la...i go find the bulu thingy 1st..den i sure put all my dad's precious car collection on it..)

Lol...this is hw i spend my whole afternoon for today...wakakaka..

- THE END -

~~ Horrible Night ~~

2008-08-13T20:54:00.002+08:00

Argh!!! it aint a GOOD night for me!....its my worst HORRIBLE nightmare!!! I'm reli cursing now!!! %%%^&^%^&%^& !!!!! ahhh.............i feel like crying!!!! No not feel like....i am ad CRYING for god sake!!!!

Reasons?!

BECAUSE I ALMOST HIT ON SOMEBODY'S CAR!!!!! WTH.......ARGH!!!!!!

I hate that feeling so damn freaking much!!!! jz whn i hit on the break.....damit.....i got flashbacks of how my grandmother bang on somebody's car once upon a time ago !!!! tht sound plays again!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate uuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHO?!

My dad!!!!! argh!!! bcz of him with his.....undecisive sense.....pointing me to FREAKING LOTS OF DIRECTIONS tht cause me to almost bang on tht car!!!!!!

Jz whn i was half way writing this...at da same time im coughing like hell....i vomitted...ahh!!! sick la!!!! damit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm cursing again over here!!!

And veven says............"wei wei is pregnant!!!"....wth!!! im reli feeling not good over here ad.....and ven u over thr playing jokes wit me....haiz.....................

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'LL B HAVIN NIGHTMARES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW CAN THIS BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its like 1centimeter to the other fella's car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.T!!!!!!!!!

~~ Quotes To You ~

2008-08-13T01:26:00.003+08:00

Hmm..today i've been quite obsessed in QUOTES after sooooo long....hahahahaha....duno wt happen to me actually. To bored i suppose..kekekeke....thts y surfing around the net for quotes.

Hrm...those quotes i read through today...all it suits my mood...n its all wat i reli wana say from my heart to him.

Quotes i want to say to him is....:-

When you need someone to stand beside you, "I’m Near", When you need someone to hear your troubles, "I will". When you need someone to share your burden "I’m Free". When you need someone who care, "I'll Be.."

You are the reason why I have sleepless nights. You are the reason why I tend to hold my pillow tight. It's you that I'm thinking when I lay down at night. And you are the reason I can't sleep without saying goodnight.

I don’t expect you to keep me as the most important person in your life. ‘cause I’m not and that’s okay. But somehow I wish for something else, that when you think of me, at least you smile!

You think I’m strong don’t you? Well, even though I seem to be tough, I’m afraid of one thing. It is realizing that I’ve lost the person from whom I gather strength from. So don’t ever go, I’m not that strong.

I’m scared to care too much, to miss too much, to feel that rush once more, to love again at the risk of getting hurt. But what I fear most is the thought of you leaving me, when I’ve already conquered those fears for you.

Love’s like a butterfly. You surely can’t hold them forever. That’s why if love is right now with you make the most of what you can do cause who knows, the butterfly wants to stay with you.

Life is a matter of choice. You can be a doctor who saves life! A lawyer who defends life. A soldier who protects life. Or just be yourself, a person, who touched my life.

No one ever taught a fish to swim, a bird to fly, a horse to run, a monkey to climb, a dog to bark, but they do. Just like me, no one ever taught me to love you. I just do!

I’ve tried to think of the sweetest words I could say to you. Something different and something true. But I guess there could never be a word sweeter that saying, “I love you!”

Go for the person who makes you smile with all your heart and soul. The person whom you can’t wait to see or talk to. This is the person whom you’re meant to be with. Maybe not forever, but for now, they’re right for you.

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Dear if u read frm top to bottom once again. This is wat i've been wanting to tell u.

If u nid me..I'll b thr for no mttr wt situation. I dont expect to b the most impt person in ur life; like i've told u b4. I jz hope tht i'll atleast make u smile whn u think of me. As u know, I may look like im strong frm d outside bt i'm not at all in d inside.

I lost hope in luv previously.I was afraid to love once again....bcz I was afraid tht past wud happen again..bt i took da risk whn i knew i've falled fr u. Evrytime im afraid tht i care to much..i miss too much...or i worried too much. Bt wt im afraid most is You leaving me bcz seriously I've overcalm my fears for you.

As all of us noe's tht nth last forever. Same goes to both of us..v owes sed tht nth last forever...we wudn't noe wat wud happen in d next few seconds...wt's more FOREVER? Life's is unpredictable...v might jz hav to follow the flow...like the river...let things leads us...wt most important now is tht v make the most v can do now n b happy. If i cud,I wish things last bcz I've found someone tht makes me smile with all my heart n soul. The one who i cant wait to c or talk to evryday. Not jz tht, but also someone tht brought me back on my own two feet and totally change my life back to who i reli am. Tht someone is You!

~*~* I am who I am now!*~*~

I love you dear! Thx fr everything my dear. I truly mean wt i sed above.

~●~[ кเ๓๒єгlא ]●~●~

~~ Crapz ~~

2008-08-11T17:04:00.004+08:00

I reli dun hav the mood in blogging these days...haiz...i cn c tht i've procast ehm...7 days which oso equavalent to a week!! argh...i reli duno wt to say la...

I CANT FEEL MY THROAT ANYMORE!!!!!!!

Been havin sore throat these days.....AGAIN!! YAHHH AGAIN!!!! 2nd time this year....its da same symptoms as da 1 i get previously after Chinese New Year. Due to i nvr drink enuf water. And now..same thing again....NEVER drink enuf water too....bcz previously was working n was reli reli busy....den come back keep on CHILLI-ing oni.....haiz....

I'm freaking bored now....

I want to go ice skating.........arghhh...hopefully evrything goes well wit the plans!!

haiz i think i end it here oni la...There's nth much for someone tht is sitting at home rottening to update much about.

Updated 11.08.08,5.23pm

-Kim-

~~ Tiring Days ~~

2008-08-04T21:40:00.002+08:00

Its been days since my last post huh?? hahaha....Lately I've been working for my aunt in PWTC due to she's the organiser of the Print Technology 2008 Exhibition. Not to forget with Veven a.k.a Pig oso! I've been working for 4 continuous days since friday,01.08.08 till today monday,04.08.08. Damn tired weih!!! 7am muz wake up ad bcz hav to reach thr b4 9am!!

Reach thr ad..work work work...till 7pm....12 hours leeehhhh.....but good oso la..atleast i get to spend my time being occupied with works thn staying at home doin nothing and i get PAID for working thr. wahahahaha...Everyday after work me n ven will take a train back frm Putra to Kepong. On our 1st day..da most most most....uhmmm....blur one...as i've mention v were suppose to take train frm Putra to Kepong...bt instead of tht...v get onto a WRONG train which was the SENTUL train!!! arghh....it was the last stop frm putra to sentul!..At 1st i was like damn cool n nothing whn ven told me tht "i think v got onto da wrong train...rawang train shudnt b this queit n empty" n i answer her....."nola mayb late ad la...."......n to my surpirse damit...we were reli on da wrong train!! den after v reach sentul...we thought hv to chg train....so v quickly ran to da counter n den ask da worker thr...n they ask us to go back onto da same train n back to putra. Reli damit la....den v ran like as if v've been chased by some mad dogs....due to v were afraid tht da train will leave soon....den whn v entered th train...v were gaspering all da way...so difficult to breath sia!!...den ven was like...ahem..talking on da phone wit her "dear dear"...thts how she calls him. listen till i dowan listen ad!!...ear pain arhh..!!!

We gotta meet many frenz thr...means our collegues la..all vry frenly n helpful. haha...We had alot of great happy times working together..seriously!! We can reli joke even v are serving the visitors who came by the registration counter to register n get their passes. Wahahha....no stress working with them at all eventhou its jz 4days working together. Me n Ven n a few collegues were named "MONSTERS" bcz whn v work...v will not stop....to drink...to eat.....neither to rest....FOR GOD SAKE man!!!!! thts y i'm nw suffering from backaches...a lil lip cracks...and sore throat! and ven suffers...backaches i think most probably is...n SERIOUS LIP CRACKS...wahahhaa...bleed summore le!!...mr.kel_ven surely is damn worried....or shud i say...comfirm 100% he is worried...due to he keep sending me sms asking me to take care of her...this n tht...wahahha.....ven HANG FOOK/xing fu/bahagia/happy lor uuu....horr??wahahahaha...

Today last day ady, seriously I kinda felt hard to leave that place n the frenz. But still we can meet up gehh...guahh.......or mayb some hi-bye frenz lor.

Hmm duno ler....I'm freakingly tired now..been havin not enuf slp these days...so.....this is the end of my 4days blogs....wahahahhaa...

-monkey swiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiings to bed-

~●~[ кเ๓๒єгlא ]●~●

~~ Untitled ~~

2008-07-30T22:02:00.007+08:00

I guess da problem lies in me. I'm da cause of the problem. I'm sorry fr wt i did. I worried too much...too much it cause u problems.

Today, went to DPC to hv NZ ice-cream wit veven n her bf...nt to 4gt dex came along later. I didnt know why..I wanted to c him so much..bt whn i saw him,I didnt noe wat to say. I duno why words jz don come. I treated him coldly..da way I talked to him is as if I'm talking to a stranger. It all felt so awkward. I knew wht I'm thinking of...its da matter of wt happen ytd. I was thinkin all nite bout it. I wanted to tell him, da way i felt for him..for this relationship...for the things tht he told me. But it seems so difficult.

Trust! Yes trust is important! It doesnt not build in a blink of an eye...it takes time. I trust him but at da same time...I'm causing lots of problems!..

Problems wit me..is tht I WORRIED TOO MUCH.

I find tht thou I've gone thru da "trash" life previously,I did not learn my lesson. I'm owes worrying bout EVERYTHING! I never learn my mistakes!

If worrying is something wrong,

I never wan to worry anymore! I never wan anything anymore

except havin u in my life!!!

I love u..

~~ My Feelings Through The Nite ~~

2008-07-30T03:17:00.004+08:00

I guess Im havin another sleepless nite again today. I duno why many things came to my mind after u told me bout it. Jealousy? I admit I am. Angry? I admit I am quite. Thinkin too much again?I admit I am too. Many thoughts and questions popping out my mind. Tell me..who doesnt feel this way after knowing/seeing ur own lover being touch/touching another person frm d opposite gender other den u???

It feels bad. Real BAD!

Imagine, ur own bf telling u tht..another gal tht sits beside him in da class was feeling frustrated towards smth..and out in a sudden..knock her head towards his arms??

I know I sounds vry " not understanding " ....some of u might say..like tht oni wert...nth more oso. Yeah it is true tht its nth more thn tht. Bt y wud/muz she do tht?? Kay! fine!! i wudnt careless bout it or shud i say...I CANT EVEN BOTHER!...I AM JEALOUS!! and yet ANGRY!!

I know I indirectly did things like tht and made u feel this way b4..fr example - da 1 tht happen in SEGi?? Im nt gona talk bout it..bt i gues u noe wt im sayin bout....I'm sry too dear..

I know things i sed's getting more n more ridiculous..bt I'm afraid. I'm afraid tht things between us will change. Its nt tht I dun trust him..I trust!!

THATS WHY IM TOO AFRAID TO LOSE HIM!!

I know im thinking alot now..I know he knows wht he's doin. I reli can assure he knows wt's rite n wt's wrg. But do u noe..all these can light up a spark between two person?? U meet them owes,same place same time. Whn u hv problems I'm here bt nt thr wit u to solve it..and to support u..bt tht person's thr. Owes be thr.

I guess its time for me to go to bed now. Its almost 4am now.

All i wanna say is tht....

Dear,

eventhough I cant b thr wit u,

2 solve problems wit u,

or even 2 support u,

I'm owes here.

Waiting 4 u,

Supporting u,

Loving u,

Always.

All i hope fr is ...I nvr wana lose u..I'm sorry.

~●~[ кเ๓๒єгlא ]●~●

~~ Someone's Watching Over Me ~~

2008-07-29T13:54:00.007+08:00

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

Reminds me of my previous so-called "trash" life in d year 2007. Falling into my deepest yet darkest depression of my life. It also changes my life today. I finally found myself. The actual me tht's been kept fr a long time behind da shadows is finally showed in a more naturally way. I do not nid to live a life of being another person. Funny it seems I didnt noe how i made it thru.Of cz thr's frenz beside me tht help me. Thr is one tht i cud nvr 4gt..da 1 tht owes has been thr to bring up on my own 2 feet. Adviceses and cares were given by him, it has been owes here to get myself thru the hardest days of my life. He owes bombared me with QUESTIONS tht reli makes me sit and think bout it very deeply.

I remember those days,whr i was owes half-dead in skol..frenz looking into my eyes and say...WHY R U LIKE THT?? MOVE ON..NO USED BEING LIKE THT...MOVE ON WIT LIFE LA!!...bt I owes reply them..its easy to say den to be done bt i will try. Always wit the same old reason..being afraid to face the fact. But then, one day i finally woke up and start walking away frm hiding and face the fact. Hahaha... Finally I reli see life reli turns around and I'm havin a different perception of my ways of seeing da problem..and of coz other things oso.

I learn tht,not giving up and not breaking down make things better. It doesnt kills me eventhough i've been thru so many things bt it makes me STRONGER instead. As thr's saying tht goes like..

"What dont kills you makes u stronger"

See now I'm havin a better life thn b4. If you wud asked me..what i regret most and wat i nvr regret b4 in my 18years of life..I wud say...

-I'm regret for not working hard enuf fr my studies..owes been slacking over especially in HIGH SKOL.

-I'm not regret for the things I've done n faces in life.Those are the things tht brought me to who I am today. I've take it as a lesson I've learn and experience of my life.

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~~ My Sunday ~~

2008-07-28T00:29:00.005+08:00

Went OU wit mom n bro early this afternoon.Wow...walk frm hour to hours,shop to shops....tired to tired-sssssss........my legs hurts...."i cant feel my legs anymore" says bro..kekekeke....bought alot of stuffs. Okay its been like how long since my last SHOPPING wit my mom??? 1month?? 2months?? or more??? i lost count. Bt anyway today was fun thou. Mom bought gundam "jiggies" fr bro to fix. "TO ASSURE HIS BRAIN IS FUNCTIONING WELL"-one of its reasons.

Came back at around 6pm..bro agreed to do 10questions of maths in order to get his gundam "jiggies" to the table. So I guide him fr it. Dinner time....had roasted chicken wit baked potatoes n carrot...wooo...nice...nvr 4gt da vegetables salad. FINGER LICKING GUD WEIHH....~..

After dinner, my parents went fr golf...without me!!! due to..bro nt yet finish his work....!! n so finally he finishes....and gundam "jiggies" fixing started. At first, I reli wasnt interested in "BOY's Toys!" at all!!!....or shud i say NEVER DID I INTERESTED....bt thn...it gt me addicted to it. I'm fixing it da most...thn my bro! my god..! I'm kinda GI-NI-OUS in it...kekeke....jz joking. It had nt completed yet. bt soon I guess. We shall see if tommorow me n bro cud get it all done. wakakakaka...

Ohh! something interesting tht i 4gt to mention. Dex dropped by today. Unexpectedly! He called up to say tht he wans to used the printer. I sed okay..n he came by around 9.30pm. and another unexpected thing to see was.....he got his left leg injured due to being kicked by some old man...durin da footbal game this morning!!!!! arghh!! i nvr like to c injuries nor getting injured!! Blahhh! nvm he sed its a small matter....nahh...im nt reli tht frust thou..bcz its sports la! accidents do happen!! Guess wat....he ate DURIAN!!!!!!! EWWW~~!!!!!!!! It smells reli strong n yucks. B4 he left..around 10smth..he BURP!! More yuck!....

ahh!! dexter lee!! i nvr gonna forget tht hand of ur's tht smells like durian!!!

Okay! So this is my day.So long and Goodnight....tata~~...

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~~ Geek In Pink ~~

2008-07-25T18:16:00.003+08:00

Hmm...today my mood is like....kinda weird a lil. Hahaha..Pink stuffs today reli attracts me more thn usual. I'm ad a freak of PINK and BLUE to my frenz. And now today i'm extreamly into PINK....fuhh....i wonder why..I felt happy looking at pink stuffs. hahahaha...extreamly happy...

Okay!! I present myself the "GEEK IN PINK" for the day.

25.07.08,Friday-6.24pm

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~~ No food but Thoughts?? ~~

2008-07-24T19:19:00.003+08:00

Ahhh i didnt mean to write another blog bt i suddenly thought of smth. Actually i was about to go for my dinner..bcz my mom is back. I quickly ran downstairs for the kitchen. I was so damn hungry...instead of getting food..dad sed..mom's out to the salon..dinner's not so early..wait till she's back den v eat!! I was like..u noe la wit those dissapointments looks on my face.

Now..with hungry-ness in me...with no food...bt i thought of smth suddenly. Suddenly whn i was rushing back into my room,my playlist was playing jason mraz n colbie caillat's song call -LUCKY- I reminds me of ytd..havin him here wit me..i cud reli fall asleep right away in his arms. Miss those times alot. I felt lucky i've found someone like him..

The song goes like,

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They duno hw long it takes, waiting for a love like this.Everytime v say gdbye,I wish v had one more kiss.I'll wait for u.I promise u,I'll wait. I love you dear...

kk...i'm done wit my blog fr today. now goin off to sent my bro to tuition argh!! so lazy....so long...

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~~ Slacking Time Away ~~

2008-07-24T17:20:00.003+08:00

Ytd 23rd of July...its Tommi's birthday. So v celebrated fr him in D'Fortune,Manjalara. I guess he is happy guaa....s wt's stated in his MSN personal msg. haha...he'll b "bowing" to every1 i guess. Nth much to say bout it ad...

As the nite comes even closer, I went to bed b4 the sun rises. Which oso means around 3.30am..haiz...was watching tv at tht moment. I slept comfortably bt it wasnt comfort enuf due to sharing bed ytd nite wit MOM!....ahhh!!!

Wonder hw my mom landed in my bed???

She was in my room reading newspaper n talking to me bout some soon-to-start-college thingy...due to i was kinda slacking my time previously in HELP(HUC) for about 1 Semester. Den after the talks,I went downstairs to watch tv..leaving her in da room using da comp. When i'm done wit shows at 3.30am, i went back to da room...thinking tht she's back to her own room..but...instead of tht..she's in my bed slping!!!....so i didnt wan to wake her up,th4 i jz slp at the side of the bed...luckily i did nt FALL OFF THE BED repeating my bedtime history.

Now i'm suffering from neckache due to slping in a bad posture. AHHhhh!!!....I woke up at about 12smth in d afternoon..by my aunt's phone call...asking me wether im free or nt about 4.30pm...bcz my uncle might be late rushing home to fetch my cousin to tuition. Bt she jz sed if my uncle cud make it...den she wont give me a call at around 4pm which also means i can continue stay at home. So at around 4pm...she nvr call me...so means haiz.........understood lor..nth to do for me..I'm jz slacking my time here in front of the comp blogging..both tv is conquer by dad n bro...1 watching shows i hv no interest in and another gaming games whr i dn hv interest in too.

Ahhh!!!!!!!!!! i'm bored like hell.....dex is bz..as he ady told me ytd,he'll b hvin exams tmr n monday...plus assignments to b handed in and to be done.....studies to be cope with. It's a hell of stress for him. I aint gona disturb him at this kinda moment. Looking at my comfy bed beside me,i feel like landing on it n go to slp. BUT NO! i aint gona do tht....if nt...i'm gona hav another few days of not slping...due to SLEEPING TOO MUCH.

I rather college to start now...den me stayin at home doin nth bt SLACKING MY TIME AWAY!!!!.....anyway will b starting working for my aunt n cousin bro soon. So tht shall b a 4 days of busy-ing + tonnes of things to do to past my time. But oni 4days which is 1st-4th aug!!! yer....den wt im gona do frm 5th - 24th????? since 25th oni start college?? ohhh i noe wt...get da payment ad....den i can go shop fr my college stuffs! i can go shopping wit veven!!!ven can go wit me?? hahahahaha.....since i still owe u 1 outing....horrrrrrr???....

Anyway i'm highly insane now..due to boring-ness fills my mind.....sobs....miss me dear........miss him alot arhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~~ I'm Yours ~~

2008-07-22T22:03:00.002+08:00

Hmm..Currently my playlist is playing Jason Mraz - I'm Yours. Didnt know da reasons why i'm addicted to the style of the song. I keep on repeating da song since this afternoon.

Ahhh I jz love it lots. I love guitars.....i love songs played by guitars and pianos alot. Most of all I LOVE MUSICS....I love to sing(blahhh aint a gud singer!!!so dn ask me 2 sing...).

Suddenly it reli reminds me alot of days back in high skol especially in year 2006..whr the S.W.A.T.V is formed. Back in those days...da 5 of us usually sat in clz singing and havin fun during the free times. See hw notti v r..aint studying...NORMAL la. Den whn get closer to the 1990'z ad...hahaha...da gang started la..everytime...singing oni. I still rmb..David Yeoh and Juni..they luv to hold their guitars singing.There's 1 time whn " Lips of An Angel - Hinder" was a hit...all of us keep on singing tht song oni..haha...reli nice la..enjoy those moments alot. Ahhh I wonder whn can i enjoy those moments again..wit guitars playing beside my ears...ahhh i'm melted by it.

Currently in Kim's mind is....dreaming........of....................." who can duet wit me: Jason Mraz : I'm Yours..."

wahahahahahaa.....jzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz jokingggggggggggggggggggg.........................told ya i don sing!!!!!! blahhhh..................................................kekekekke...

Anyway,ytd i had sort of an arguement / misunderstandings wit dex. But everything's fine now....We're alright..back to normal..

This is my day......

I wont hesitate no more,no more... It canot wait.... I'm Yours....

~~ My Days ~~

2008-07-21T18:50:00.003+08:00

Geezzz!!! My day today is about me -NOT BEING AT HOME-....ahhh...What i meant is...frm da moment i was waken by my dad...its all about "Wei!! Sent me here!! Fetch me there...bring these to ur grandmother's place....!! " bla bla bla bla....sobs...So my last destination was goin to my grandmother's hse..den fetch my aunt to da salon and i went back to my grandmother's place to hav my lunch...after lunch...i told myself..i aint goin back home..i'm gonna stay here...till evening! ....and in jz an hour...my dad called.....here goes....

Kim Vs Dad Conver:

Dad: Whr r u??

Kim: At grandmother's hse.

Dad: Okay! Can u plz go to the hardware shop to get da paint sample??

Kim: Erm okay..

Brought my younger cousins along....i drove to da hardware shop.....get da sample.....and....left!!! vrrrooooommmmm........................

Almost reached home......nex call came....Kim looked at da phone.....and sed " Oh gosh! It's dad AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"....answered the phone.....

Kim vs Dad Conver:

Dad: Hv u left the shop??

Kim: Yahh!!..I'm almost reaching home.

Dad: Can u help me to buy cigarrette??

Kim: *speaking in da heart -geeezz!!! wt is this! CIGAR!!! rosak-ing my image!* Ohh okay lor...

Wit the unwilling-ness expression on the face...i drove off again..haisehh!!! After tht went back home...wit my younger cousins..thn not long after tht...i hav to go back to my grandmother's hse...due to 1 of my younger cousin hv tuition at 5pm..and i hv to fetch my aunt. Sat thr till 6smth....dad calls AGAIN!!!!!

Kim vs Dad~~~

Dad: Wei...on the way coming home...plz drop by the shop(i duno wt its cal..bt they sell buddhist praying stuffs) to get da jossticks.

Kim: Okay Okay.....!!

sobs....this is my day fr today.....ahhhhh.........

~~ The Continuous ~

2008-07-20T13:15:00.004+08:00

Actually thr's nth mch to say bout ytd ad. Dex fetches Kok Yung back and so every1 jz went home lor.After i fetch Sim Yee back,I fetch Juni home..David tooked his stuff frm Juni's hse and help unload the stuff into Juni's hse...den we headed to Dex's hse..jz to get back da keyboard thts in his car. Nth mch...so i reached home around 7pm. Was reli exhausted and feel tired..bt i jz duno why..i jz cant get myself to slp. So i landed in bed in d middle of the nite..wit the eyes widely open till i slept fr like 2hrs+ and den da sun rises...till a new day..thts today.

As u read the above n d previous post..u'll found out tht..my relationship wit dex was nt mention often..or shud i say its all about wt happen in da car...da most. I reli duno wt to say bout it or hw to talk bout it...all i can do is i'll let it be..i'll jz wait..whnever thr's a chance to meet him..i dn mind being bored/left out..i jz wan to b around him..bt nt owes..cz he nids his own time himself too. Those who was wit us ytd..we may look very loving..and adores each other..bt thts oni whn v met each other..i dun mean tht v dn sms or does things like other couples does....bt its been vry mch lesser ad. Chances of meeting up is like...1 or 2 times a week..or mayb v don meet at all. I knw some may say..."Some couples don even meet up fr months..n u're consider lucky enuf ady okay!" I know...I understand n I don mind. I'll wait. Some of u may b thinking tht im complaining..or whatsoever...bt im am not...this da fact..i jz felt i duno hw to b myself or b his gf whn he is around anymore..things like i try to grab his attention..i try to tel him something..evrytime failes..bcz...words jz don come..actions jz wont work.

My heart hurts each time..each single time whn i noe i miss da chance. Tht 1 single sec havin him beside me..is like a precious diamond tht i cud nvr hav it back whn i lose it. I admit tht I wan and need to keep in touch wit my loved ones...i know thr r times..thr r things...tht jz wont go da way v wan it to b..I admit and nvr denies things related to him is never enuf for me..like time spending wit him fr an example. Humans r humans...they'll nvr get enuf.

I duno hw to let him noe tht my heart is breaking...and it hurts..alot..i cant find anymore ways to prove my love is sincere..words i sed thou i mean it...bt still words r still words without actions.I've been not slping well these few days.....i duno why. I always waits..even frm da day back in high skol whr i knew tht things wont happen between us..except being frenz till he went to NS n we started jz like tht whr v owes were smsing every weekend and till he's back fr gd..yet till this day..im still waiting fr him. Each min waiting fr him...waiting fr da phone to ring..waiting fr a msg frm him...i waited n waited...n waited. Bt each hour goes by...putting all my hopes so high...it ends up getting bigger dissapointments..and it hurts once again.

I know he's been vry busy with his studies lately..and today he is nt feeling well...i know n i still trust tht feeling in him is still thr..n it had nvr change...I keep telling myself..things will b better...wt happen in da past wont happen again. I know i did alot of bad stuff..causing him to feel bad. I know wtever i've done is wrg..and i cant do anything to replace my mistakes..bt all i can do is i'm sorry.

I knw some may think tht im thinking negatively/thinking way too much.....i don care..it doesnt matter wt u gotta think or say bout me..all these are jz my thoughts which i kept in my heart and i cant/duno hw to express it out bt to write it down. I dn nid sympathies...i dn nid anything...its jz THOUGHTS of myself!!

I still love u alot...bt i reli duno hw to make things bttr wit these obstacles in da way...thou it hurts..i'll try to bear wit it..get thru it...and i'll still wait fr u like i owes do....

Leaving Thoughts of,
-Kimberly-

~~ What A Day ~~

2008-07-20T00:16:00.006+08:00

Today I had a very long and happy(fun) day bcz many funny stuff happen along da way. Okay here it goes...today the 1990'z was performing at SEGi during da charity carnival...thr4 v all headed over to tht college. At 1st i was thinking hw m i suppose to go thr...den atlast da nite b4 i asked my mom cud i drive thr? den she was like..." u so brave ka?"...i answered her "uhm...i think i cn handle it." den at 1st she sed i think i'll sent u thr..and whn u wn to come back..den u gime a cal..den she decided to let me drive thr alone provided thr's some1 tagging along.

So the nex day itself, I sms-ed dex to asked him if any1 of them wud wana tag along in my car (due to he has to fetch every1..= 6person) bcz i might b drivin thr...den he did nt reli reply me....haiz...normal case lor..kekekeke..jkjk...den he called up..to asked me..izit okay if juni n a few join in my car..bcz he dn think his car cud fit every1 in + d intruments = HEAVY....so i sed sure..den he sed v'll meet up in juni's hse b4 11.30am.

Okay...so whn i reached juni's hse...dex havent arrive..means im d EARLIEST lor...wwahahaha...bt actually he reached jz a min or so after me..kekeke..den v both entered juni's hse lor..as usual la...guy mahh...mz "pan leng leng"( make-up )geh... so waited lor..say 11.30am leave to fetch Sim Yee d oni gal in da band..bt late pulak...bt nvm la..atlast oso reach wert...kekeke....so while walking towards my car to put the stuff in....david was like..who's car is this? ur car ar? and YEAH! wit a SHOCKING TONE....."U CAN DRIVE????" ....kakakaka...and i ans yeah i drive david!!!...den whn i start to drive..they were like...weih dn so nervous..OKAY I ADMIT ....I AM NERVOUS!!!....okay thts jz d beginning.....so i was suppose to fetch sim yee..whereas dex n d rest went to SEGi first...so v waited fr Sim Yee at her hse at Aman Puri (Condo/Apartment)....da 3 of us waited in da car...david n juni keep singing JAY CHOU's songs(like so addicted oni)....n so v waited fr quite some time..den juni called Sim Yee...surprisingly...she's at da guard hse...hahahaha didnt notice she came out frm da lift oso...so da journey down to LDP highway STARTED!!

at 1st i was kinda afraid tht i cud nt handle..bt hey..i made it...kuakuakuakua.....wit da help of da ppl's in da car.I admit im quite a dong driver still...hey!i'm still new k...more to learn. So v reached the tol...and i was using touch n' go...wassaiiiii!!!! my car went a distance away frm da machine...damit!! and i cant touch n' go the machine + im SHORT la!!!!!geeezzzz i hate it...n all of us was like laughing like hell oni....i myself oso laughing at myself. Hahaha....

The traffic goin into OU was kinda like...uhm...LONG!mayb they changed the timing of the traffic light i guess....so made a U-turn to da tunnel at da curve n tesco...passes by few traffic lights...geeezz damn long oso....while waiting in da traffic...i think dex called juni...to tel him tht they'll b performing 5th or duno wat la...and at tht time its ad d 2nd performance....and WE R STILL STUCK IN DA TRAFFIC!!....juni started to like "jumping up and down" ad..."screaming n yelling..." 1 of his line...."GOD DAMIT!!! FASTER LA!!! "as well...askin me to speed...okay i think i did speed gua and HE'S RELI FREAKING ME OUT....n he knew it!!! bt im still laughing thr...bcz its funny.....so v reached and things were bttr...and they performed......and at da same time Jun Kheay arrived....hmm...seriously they did a great job up thr(for me atleast)...bt the crowd wasnt tht gd...thr's ppl tht cheered fr them...and i duno hw to say bout the sound system...so no comments la...at

after the performance...they cleared their stuff and put it into the car..like hw it was brought thr..(in both cars la)...den we went to jalan-jalan cari makan....seriously nth mch bout it to say...den after tht jalan-jalan thingy...we headed over to OU...this time lagi syiok...! We collected our car tht is parked in SEGi's parking lot....and den while i was reversing my car...came a white Myvi which is jun kheay's car n da driver wasnt him bt Juni behind my car..so which also means...i'm heading da way....this time wit me in da car is Mr.David Yeoh!! & Sim Yee...haha...so whn im out...i followed da KELUAR sign lor....thts wt direction signs r for....and den i saw thr's left n right turn..2ways out...so i turn to da left 1...and it headed us to a -DEAD END!!!- which actually thr's a road to go out..bt due to those booths is thr thts y its block....and i wasnt d oni 1 who is confused....bt others...includes mr.dex....kekekeke...so we made U-turn lor...no choice...atlast we got out of the college compound...n saw Cheah Yao waiting fr us in his bike....wahahaha he is leading da way bcz i duno da road frm thr to OU......so v reached a traffic light...n our Mr.Good Fren David...wind da window down and shouted at Cheah Yao...omg...da car bside us was looking..wahhahaha...bt nth oso wert...its FUNNY thou...so as Cheah Yao were leading us da way...he went a lil too fast...bt I think its bcz he is RIDING A BIKE thts y he can go thru easily....den HE DISSAPPEARS....thts it....no 1 to lead me...wahahha...bt nvm atleast Sim Yee knew da way....

so following her directions...and juni behind following us...we wen up da bridge...den it head us to a highway which actually cn let us U-turn back to OU..and v came to 2 lane (1 lane which u cn make a U-turn back..n its d left lane and 1 heading to mont kiara/hartamas which is da right 1)...and guess wt out Mr.Juni did this time.....sooooo smart.....he over tooked my car.....okay...i know bcz im too slow..or izit bcz my signal thingy ahhahahaha....so end up he is in front of me lor...and he speed straight to d right lane..which is THE WRONG ROAD....we were suppose to go to da left lane...hahaha bt nvm he sed go jalan-jalan worrrr...kekekeke...

so we reach OU...found parking...head fr GSC....at 1st we wanted to watch movie...bt thn Jonathan and CY hav to rush home by 5pm....den majority was like..dn wana watch...i oso like anything oni....so da whole plan ended up goin OU to makan..at MONG KOK(hope i did nt spell it wrgly)....every1 was like so hungry....and CY kesian him la...every1 finishes eating ad...his food oso havent come yet....normal case eating in tht place la....they nt serious is doin work oso geh.. -in my experience of eating at MK-....after the food came, CY ate it and he left...wit paying la of coz....Jonathan left after he finish and pay as wel bcz he was following his aunt back..den we walk awhile...den every1 say bttr make a move...so david,juni and sim yee followed me..

I lazy wan to elaborate ad...for nw la...mayb tmr oni cont.....feels like slping thou...its been like..since last night whr i did nt slp well...or shud i say i did nt slp at all...i reli canot tahan ad....

~~ Birthday ~~

2008-07-17T15:32:00.007+08:00

1~Birthday??...wt do u think bout birthday?
uhm....everyone has a birthday.durh!...

2~whn ur birthday comes wht does it means?
..it means u've GROWN A YEAR OLDER. buahahahahahahaha...

3~how do u celebrate urs and other ppls birthday???
uhm...well...for myself...i love surprises..(blahh dn fool me ya!)...most of all is i cud enjoy it with my frenz/someone special as well as my family. As celebrating for other ppl..den it depends on wt kind of person they are. Mayb A TRICK ON THEM??..blahh old trick usually works well i guess...bt most of the time...THEY KNEW IT!!arghh...okay..thts jz bcz sometimes they r too smart at it...or im suck at it...buahahhahaha....

So....

It's july...and somebody's birthday is just around the corner!wuuu....he dropped me a comment on my previous post...and guess wt he sed.... my song of the month shud be " HAPPY BIRTHDAY " song to him...BLAHHHH......dream on TOMMI CHOO a.k.a McDrifter!!! wahhahahaha...i'm EVIL....huh? of coz la...no evil no kim weih....

BUAHAHHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!!!

I know la he wans SPECIAL things to happen.....uhm.....u noe....gals asking him out on a date...receiving special calls/dates frm somebody....ahem.....den receiving gifts.....and yada yada....wahahahhahaha.....I KNOW U WONT DENY TOMMI!! ngek ngek ngek!!!

K la k la...tommi u know im EVIL bt actually Im not tht evil oni la!! yor!!! I rmb ur birthday 1......23th of july mahhh.....sama NOMBOR WIT BECKHAM'S JERSEY mahhhh.........i knowwwww.........belum tiba oso...sudah mau orang kasi u lagu of the month "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"!!

Sekarang aku bagi u lor...tapi arhh...in ur friendster la...kuakuakuakuakua.....and da lyrics cacat sikit....its sang as "i know i'm late"....bt OI!!! KIM IS NOT LATE AND NVR LATE AT ALL!!!!

Happy Birthday Dude!! PEACE OUT \\//

~~ Miduhyo ~~ Song of July....

2008-07-16T14:59:00.003+08:00

It suits my mood these days thou....

Girl, Let me prove that my love is real
I'll give all my love to you, Please Trust me

I believe...I believe that one can fall in love at first sight
Though I told you that it wasn't possible
I only hid this thought from you because I was afraid
That you would look at me as if I was careless and hasty.

To tell the truth, ever since I met you
I only lived with thoughts of you.
There was only one thing on my mind
From when I woke up in the morning
Till when I went to bed at night.

*I believe in you...
I will send all my feelings for you through the the way I look at you.
Do you know how my heart feels?
How I want to keep the feelings I have for you hidden?
Even the fearful feelings for when you might leave me one day.

You...

Love is a nervous feeling that flutters your heart...
It is like a breathtaking loneliness...

Please keep looking at me with the same eyes...
Always and forever like this.

If only you could stay close enough to me so that my heart can relax...
Just so that I could see you...I would be very happy.

*Repeat

You...

If I could stay by your side like this...
If, in the end, it is that I don't know anything about how much I love you.

*Repeat

I can't let you go
You are the only one in my life

~~ Reunion Of The Gang ~~

2008-07-06T16:56:00.008+08:00

Ohhps!! I guess I'm starting my PROCASTINATION habits ady!! its been so long since da last post!!..I know I know..I'M LATE!! haha..many things to write but PEOPLE LAZY MA!!!yor!! k la k la...dowan delay ad...

On the 5th of July I planned a reunion night for the 1990'z and S.W.A.T.V gang. I thought tht somebody will NOT MAKE IT THT DAY...and!!!--- Amazingly surprise...everyone was there!!

Those who were there:- Sandy,Kim,Ann Yee,Tiffany,Veven,Juni,Dexter,Cheah Yao,David Yeoh and Jun Kheay.

As usual the girls are jz 5 of us and the guys were lyk also 5(closes ones la). Hahaha.....That night,we made it at 8.30pm bt then bcz Juni has to go fr his footbal match some of us made it at 8pm.So,Juni was the 1st one to reached spicy bcz he stay jz around thr. Then he smsed me n sed he's lyk "MR.LONELY" thr in spicy ask me to rush veven to be QUICK..hahaha....and at tht time,CY and sann havent arrived yet.I was late due to veven and tiff picked me up late..thr4 v reached at 8.30pm. haha...better thn nth la. Kheay went home to eat dinner 1st after tht he joined us. Ann joined us after her dinner too.

When v reached thr..u can nvr imagine hw noisy the 4 gals was...excluding me la(durh...so obvious im QUIET..a lil..)....Juni and CY was lyk..."omg...nite market mehh...."summore tht time still early and not many ppl thr in Spicy. Btw who cares if v're noisy!!!! Everyone toks lyk as if its been years v hv not met each other. durh its THE FACT!!!

Ohya another thing, as the gang knows david owes ffk(fong fei kei) 1. At first, I was lyk telling tiff tht i duno david will come not..due to his habits owes ffk. Den he called up..asking v all thr ad ar...and i sed yeah jz reach..he sed okay....assuming mayb he not coming la....surprisingly...HE TURN UP..haha...after church. Lucky he turn up..if not...hahaha he sure kena la. Everyone continue toking of alot of stuffs....As time passes by its almost 9pm..and Juni hav to go for his futbal match. Okay lor..he went lor..den v continue toking...and wait fr tht dong dong DEXTER to arrive bcz he had family dinner ma!!!..YOR!...Atlast he oso turned up wert..hahaha..he dare nt to turn up he habis la...I'll PAK him....ngek ngek ngek...

Anyway,on the 8th of july...i finally went fr my repeat driving exam:uphill/parking/3point turn. And owh great!! i finally made it!! wahahaha....and on friday itself i got my P....wuuu....been driving around bt damn tiring...especially rainy days in da night! gosh!! wit the traffic in KEPONG...omg...nitemares coming...~~~haha..

Nowadays, I hv nth mch to say la..quite a number of stuff happened lately fr example:me n him; bt i dun reli wish to elaborate mch bout it here..bcz its ad a past. Its solved anyway. I've been quite LONELY or shud i say...I GOT NOTHING TO DO..AND NOWHERE TO GO...i'm bored..haha...he's busy studying ma...NO NID STUDY MEHH!!

And furthermore, not owes oso muz spend time together 1 ma...human nid space for themselves( oi stupid kim! u vry CLEVER to tok la! but whn it comes to FACE THE FACT...u failed to insert tht line into ur brain! ). haiz..i noe la..bt me nw nth to do ma..of coz will u noe...automatically wn spend time wit him and lyk keep in touch wit each other 1 la..haiz..sorry lor..

Anyway i nth to say ady luu..here are some pics of tht nite....but not everyone is in..sobs..

Crazy guys(gays)

Couples of the nite...Ms.Sandy & Mr.Cheah Yao....

Ann says: Peace dude!

Sann u're nt in!! sobs..its INCOMPLETE WITHOUT U!!!

Proudly Present the face of the NIGHT..MR.PARROT-ISED: HAKUNA MATATA!!

P.S:-Jz so u know...this blog was written yesterday 15th July. Reasons why its stated 6th July is bcz i started it on tht day bt didnt manage to finish it up due to my lazyness.

~~ 1st July 2008 ~~

2008-07-02T16:11:00.002+08:00

Many things happened today. It was a good day but it wasnt as good as b4. I wanted to say many sorries to him but all I can do is just leave him alone. I sat here all day thinking is things fading away?? R v fading away?? or izit me tht's thinking too much??? or I did smth wrg to cause all these to happen?? I know things are getting tougher between us. U were gona start ur college soon and so am I. U hav ur own problems tht pressures u and I shouldnt hav add on more to u. Mayb the guys were right,girls are just to annoying. I put too mch pressure onto u. Im sorry. Sometimes I jz dont know wt the heck I'm thinking bout...too many things I'm scare of and somethings whr I jz cant stop fearing and thinking bout it. I know the more i think,the more im afraid of it to happen,it will somehow happen someday.

Guess what,Im repeating the song u send to me: Smile-lonestar. Eventhough days were rough fr me these days, u somehow cheers me up by sending me this song. I seriously love this song dear. I know thr will b days I'll meet without u here wit me and i'll rmb to smile even it kills me.

Dear..I'm sorry fr everything tht i did to u all these while. I know u'll say i did not...bt plz face the fact tht i did. I noe no matter hw many sorries are thr fr me to say to u, its jz aint enuf to cure the wound i hav hurt u all these while. All i want to say is tht..DEAR I LOVE YOU...my love towards u aint jz summer breeze,its nt even jz fr fun. I love u, I reli mean fr the things i sed to u.

Dear I love u alot....Im sorry.

~~ After So Long ~~

2008-07-01T22:53:00.002+08:00

After so many days since my last blog. 2days ago,my comp fall sick so didnt managed to get on9. For the past 2days i reli got alot to say..many things had happened bt i aint gona mention it here bz it aint da reason i post this today.

I wanted to say IM SORRY a million times to someone tht i hurt him so mch tht i felt guilty myself...

Im sry fr everything..every word i sed...every single thing tht i did tht hurts u. I noe u r angry nw..i noe u dn feel gd..i noe u r havin alot of hard times thr.....i wan to b thr... bt thn i jz dn wana make things worst anymore. I wan things to b gd..i noe u trust me n i shudnt hav sed u nvr.

Is givin time to u make things bttr??? Will it calm u dwn n our misunderstandings will b over??? Will it be??

Dear im sorry im reli sry fr everything....I love u...

!!!=Boringg_Wednesday=!!!

2008-06-25T16:03:00.004+08:00

Waking up in the afternoon with the blurness mode activated in my brains..making assumptions tht it wont b a smooth sailing day fr me today. Wash up n went downstairs...sat dwn at the sofa holding the tv-remote control n started clicking on all sorts of channels. Atlast landed in AOD watching my fav " FORENSIC HEROES II ". After last nites episode, I went back upstairs..tooked out the mag i bought 2days ago..went back down sitting at the same place browsing thru the mag. Then dad sed the maid cooked..n so i ate. Around 1smth, he called askin whether i ate ad nt...i sed i ate ad. I was reli reli blur and wtever i did..somehow i realised i was kinda slow in reacting today.I wonder why.

So nt long after tht, I started to feel lyk goin back upstairs to hv a time-alone. As soon as i entered the room..i landed in bed right away..laying thr..wit blanked mind..songs were turn on...bt then it jz dn make my tense goes away..so i decided to hv the playlist changed and made it in SHUFFLE MODE. Somehow it clears a lil bit of my tense away bt nt reli everything thou. I jz felt my mind is loaded with many many stuff tht i jz duno wht is it..i jz duno how to describe it.

And now, I feel lyk blogging.So i ended up sitting in front of the comp. While i'm blogging halfway here...there comes

" ELLIOT YAMIN - I'll WAIT FOR YOU ".

I guess this playlist is better to ease my blurness+tenses...haha...

There's nth mch i can/wud say bout me n him today..it's nt like everytime v'll b free fr each other. Humans need space of their own..

My mood is like:I need a CHIVAS now if i cud ever drink...

~~ An Interesting Day Yet A Bad Day ~~

2008-06-24T22:36:00.003+08:00

Great! Its my DRIVING TEST today!!! Some of u might hav ady noe wt had happen this afternoon..Yahhh!! I failed my uphill!! and BOOM thts it...no more parking no more 3point turn!!!!! But i.....

PASS ON THE ROAD....AMAZINGLY!!!!!!

(i pass d 1 tht im less confident in...n i failed the 1 tht i fear less!!!! hw cn this be!!!! thr4 the conclusion is.....dn be TOO OVER CONFIDENT wit urself!! maintain at average lvl!!! )

i got nth to say bout the uphill....i dn blame any1...i dn blame myself fr wt had happen today......"i dn even blame the car in everything tht happen!!!!"

I was given on the road 1st...and whn i entered da car haha...i did everything...okay im done....den i drove off....and i was given ROAD 2!! the road whr i'm quite farmiliar off...kuakuakuakuakua.....The best part was he actually asked me..." do u noe which road is it??" n i answered..."yahh the 1 whr THE ANIMAL CLINIC is located!!!" n he keep on toking to me bcz he knewed im nervous....DURH!! hu doesnt!!! Frm the moment i stepped into da car...i reli didnt noe wt was i thinkin...wanted to laugh n dn wan to laugh...aiks..reli reli blur...kekeke...

I guess gudlucks wasnt on my side today...nvm..its alright...i'm still laughing thou...hahaha...i'll hv my luck back in these 2 weeks time...i'm sure!!! I can definately do it!!!

Thats all!! Chaoz...nitez

~~ Saturday Night ~~

2008-06-22T23:13:00.003+08:00

Ohh kay!! I'm late...delayed the post bout ytd..i was freakingly damn damn damn tired....!!!!After the carnival in the morning tht i hv to wake up at 6.30am and then night thr's bbq in tommi's hse...hahaha...the whole day was lyk ALL DAY OUT....i didnt had long slp in the afternoon thou..jz an hr or so oni....whn i woke up WOW whole body no strength..reli feel lyk floating..due to i nvr had proper meals in da morn & afternoon...kekeke...some ppls scolded me last night....ehm...especially HIM....hahaha....

Back to the carnival day in SMKB...hmm it was quite fun thou besides meeting old skolmates/classmates...the band rehers. was cool too..

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! AMAZED-lonestar MELTS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!I RELI FELL IN LOVE WITH THT SONG WHN THEY PLYED THE SONG AND WHN KOK YUNG SANG THE 1ST VERSE!!!AHH!!!

but the food in skol nvr AMAZED me...ngek ngek ngek ngek......

then the BBQ in tommi's hse was even better!! way way mch more better...reached tommi's hse around 7.45pm as he stated in blog. He sed v were late as v followed MALAYSIAN STYLE -always late hahaha!! There's oni 2 GIRLS among the 4 + 1(late comer) guys!!! So as soon as v reached his hse...the guys started the fire...s tommi had sed..wt's BBQ without putting the fires on. So they started with the olden way...by using the fire starter and oso fan-ing it wit newspaper...hmm den they was sooooooo tired and out of energy i guess...so they used the FASTEST way...thts.....ahem............tommi sed it was P&C!!! dn wana b killed by him.....invite them fr BBQ they'll teach u...i guess..hahahaa.....da gals was jz sitting thr relaxing...hw nice.

The fire they made ended up becoming more and more BIGGER-danger!! Juni the hungry-iest of all made his way 1st to BBQ the chicken wing....hahaha....the chicken ended up becoming BLACK!! i bet some wudnt wna try it...hahaha...bt it wasnt tht bad thou...so every1 BBQ till 10.30pm..tht was QUICK!!! den went into da hse to wait fr kah wei the late comer...due to class reunion.

Atlast he arrive at 11.24pm (according to him...s he sed bcz tommi sed he needs to arrive at tommi's hse by 11.30pm if nt the friendship is OFF so he made it 6mins b4 11.30pm). So v all headed fr 2nd rond....den patterns starting to get even ore between kok yung and dex.They were both doin crazy stuffs n they even use a METAL fork to BBQ sosej!! so insane of them...den dex keeps asking fr "english herbal tea a.k.a beer" and kah wei went to took 1 can of beer fr himself...and DEXTER WHN AND TOOKED 1 MOUTH OF IT!!!! and then the action keeps repeating after 1 mouth of it.

Jokes were getting lamier among them....patterns was lyk getting more n more funnier each day tht passes by the McLovins. They r jz hu they are....hmmm i dn reli hv mch to say ad..due to my brain system is goin into ASLEEP MODE hahaha...reli reli tired...and tmr morn 9am still gt LAST DRIVING LESSON b4 the exam on tuesday...wish me luck!!!haiz........

NIGHT NIGHTS!!!

I had a great day!!

2008-06-21T01:12:00.003+08:00

BUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!!!!!

Its 1.18am now...and.....

i'm blogging here instead of sleeping!!!

I jz got home frm ehm......

THE OUTING!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its nice.....and guess wt....in my previous post i wrote "MAID"!!!

it was suppose to b MADE OF HONOR kekekekeke....

the show..it was nice and funny...

oh!...nt to 4gt thr's ehm...."sign language" hahahaha.....

an overall fr the movie i wud say

IT'S COOL!!!

So after the show end around 11.10pm.....

we headed off to SPICY manjalara....

the place whr our TT (tea time) is owes on!!!!

I was so damn hungry...

i didnt noe why....

so i ordered:

1.Maggie Goreng

2.Milo Iced x 2

After TONNES FULL OF FOOD loaded in me....

I was sooooo sleepy after tht...

thought tht after i'll b heading straight to bed whn i reached home....

but instead of heading fr bed....

i headed fr the comp....GREAT!!!!!

and i feel lyk blogging........

kuakuakuakua.....

OKAY OKAY!!

I THINK THIS IS ENUF BOUT TODAY.....

BECAUSE ITS 1.55AM WHN I TYPE THIS SENTENCE!!!!

I'LL NEED TO WAKE UP AT 6.30AM LATER!!!

CZ I'LL B HEADING TO SMKB:CARNIVAL!!!

GOODNITE EVERYONE.....

MUAHHHHAAAHHAAAHAAAHHHA!!!!!!

~!!* It's Raining!! It's Raining!! *!!~

2008-06-19T16:09:00.002+08:00

It's raining cats and dogs outside and im sitting infront of the comp blogging...

hahaha..im reli insane nw..

AHH!! i duno wt's wrg wit me..

mayb the lightning stricks me b4 the comp..haha..

I woke up damn early these 2days..at 8.30am!! bcz of driving lesson!

So i tooked bath n get ready......n den......

DAMMIT tht uncle nvr came ytd..nvr inform me oso!!!!!!!!!!

so i slpt on the sofa fr lyk 4hrs!!!!!!

-neck damn pain!!-

ishh!!!

Then today oso same..at 8am tht uncle called saying gt drivin at 9am.

Okay fine!! i woke up at 8.30 again...

get ready and bla bla bla.....

and guess wt....the same thing again!!!

but..this time he called.....

sayin tht i hv drivin exam on nex tues.......

so i bttr drive on monday instead of 2day...................AHH!!!

So daddy bought nasi lemak...

i ate ad.....

i went back to slp....(=.=)zzzZZZ

So I slpt till 1pm..hahaha....

sat infront of the comp

meanwhile waiting fr his sms....

thts da life of a useless fool.....

tht does nt hv college to attend....

assignments to hand in.....

no due dates.....

SOUNDS GREAT!!!

ya right.......!!!!!!

DAMN BORING!!!

no goin out today..............haiz...........

But nvm.....jz fr today n da next 2days...hahahaha......

I'll b having tonnes of fun........

becoz...........

HE BOUGHT MOVIE TICKETS without me knowing....

ngek ngek ngek......

I'M ABSOLUTELY-INDEFINATELY HAPPY....

Weeeeeeeee.......hahahaha!!!!

We're heading to OU wit his cous n gf fr....

"MAID OF HONOUR"

instead of "KUNGFU PANDA"tht he promises...

haha it doesn't matter mch...

as long as its wit who u r enjoying it wit......

So I'm jz waiting fr tmr to come..

So my next post wud b soon about...

hmm.....

WE SHALL SEE...............

buahahahahahaha!!!

My First Blog on Blogspot!

2008-06-18T17:40:00.000+08:00

Oh great!!! So I've decided to start blogging on blogspot.com.

Hmm...I jz duno whr to start in my 1st blog here.

Previously I was blogging on friendster b4 i started this.

Hopefully I cud keep this blog up2date and nt procastinatng...buahahahaha!!!!!!

I'm jz too lame....=.=".........

Okay jz a simple intro to myself.

Name:Kimberly Yam

Age: 18

D.O.B: 10 Sept 1990

P.O.B: KL

I guess tht wud be a simple lil intro bout myself....

Ahh!!! I jz cant wait fr college to start in Aug 25!!!!

I'm rotten to death!!!!

Boring!!!!

Anywayz, I guess i better get goin b4 things starting to get bored..(its ady bored anyway!)kekekeke..

Chaoz!! Love ya!!

~*~* I am who I am *~*~

~*~* Happy New Year *~*

~ If Things Were A Lil Better ~

~*~* Untitled Entry *~*~

~*~* Love *~*~

~*~* THANK YOU~! *~*~

~*~* Title-less Entry *~*~

~*~* Assignments + Midterms!! *~*~

~*~* College Starts *~*~

~*~* 13.08.08 & 15.08.08 *~*~

~*~* Horrible Night *~*~

~*~* Quotes To You *~*

~*~* Crapz *~*~

~*~* Tiring Days *~*~

~*~* Untitled *~*~

~*~* My Feelings Through The Nite *~*~

~*~* Someone's Watching Over Me *~*~

~*~* My Sunday *~*~

~*~* Geek In Pink *~*~

~*~* No food but Thoughts?? *~*~

~*~* Slacking Time Away *~*~

~*~* I'm Yours *~*~

~*~* My Days *~*~

~*~* The Continuous *~*

~*~* What A Day *~*~

~*~* Birthday *~*~

~*~* Miduhyo *~*~ Song of July....

~*~* Reunion Of The Gang *~*~

~*~* 1st July 2008 *~*~

~*~* After So Long *~*~

!!!=Boringg_Wednesday=!!!

~*~* An Interesting Day Yet A Bad Day *~*~

~*~* Saturday Night *~*~

I had a great day!!

~!!* It's Raining!! It's Raining!! *!!~

My First Blog on Blogspot!

~~ I am who I am ~~

~~ Happy New Year ~

~~ Untitled Entry ~~

~~ Love ~~

~~ THANK YOU~! ~~

~~ Title-less Entry ~~

~~ Assignments + Midterms!! ~~

~~ College Starts ~~

~~ 13.08.08 & 15.08.08 ~~

~~ Horrible Night ~~

~~ Quotes To You ~

~~ Crapz ~~

~~ Tiring Days ~~

~~ Untitled ~~

~~ My Feelings Through The Nite ~~

~~ Someone's Watching Over Me ~~

~~ My Sunday ~~

~~ Geek In Pink ~~

~~ No food but Thoughts?? ~~

~~ Slacking Time Away ~~

~~ I'm Yours ~~

~~ My Days ~~

~~ The Continuous ~

~~ What A Day ~~

~~ Birthday ~~

~~ Miduhyo ~~ Song of July....

~~ Reunion Of The Gang ~~

~~ 1st July 2008 ~~

~~ After So Long ~~

~~ An Interesting Day Yet A Bad Day ~~

~~ Saturday Night ~~